mencuba.

don't stop TRY-ing. :')

wicked evil.

dont call her crazy bitch-ass! instead call her DIVA!

vintage galore.

just google few items about vintage and randomly i found this thing, unique i would called! love their styles. the way they mix and match full with the fashion senses! how i wish i am daring enough to express my own style. dont care about the comments from others, dont care about how bad peoples talk about you, just wear what do you want to wear and hit the town with all eyes lies on you.

a big thanks goes to our big mommas!
ha tak nampak ke? because of her effort sekarang batik dah dapat tempat di hati para penggila street fashion.

p/s: one of my senior  told me this, "hamdan build your confident now, once dalam bilik interview they want to see our confident not about the answer!"

will hit nearest bundle shop later on  just to grab a few square shirt and yes i do craving for acid wash jeans. haha so hayley williams!

thanks uwan for the tshirt!
yeah

"i do love london"
walaupun tak pernah sampai!
heee. granny bought for emak a pair of clarks shoes and leather handbag. mom told me yeah its cheap. i asked how much. 50pound. and for the clarks shoes? -______________-.

conversation end.

sesudah selesai.

salam ukhwah. alhamdulillah dah habis jawab MUET dah, memang aku tak hadap nak amik MUET lagi dah lepas. this is the first and the last. nanti kalau anak aku nak jadi loyar memang aku cakap. apa ke bagus sangat dah bahasa inggeris kau? dah pergi kelas BI lepas tue pergi MUET dapatkan band4. ok enough said.

aku nak cerita, salah seorang saudara aku belah bapak aku dengan bangga ritu jaja cerita yang anak dia amik law. aku pun dok dengar jelah. sambil tersenyum tawar. aku ingatkan asasi mana. form six manalah dia masuk, rerupanya masuk swasta sahaja di sebuah kolej yang sangat terkenal di ibu kota, mereka kata "kolej kami melahirkan graduan terbaik" tak lupa juga si mak cik itu juga sibuk bercerita yang anak dia akan melanjutkan pelajaran keluar negara dalam bidang undang-undang tidak lama lagi. cuba kau bayangkan anak dia duduk sebelah dengan muka bangang. tersenyum sengang simpang mangkuk ayun dia. bajet aku tak tau berapa result SPM kau? kalau takat mak bapak duit banyak lepas tue kau amik law balik sini kau ingat terus kau jadi hakim haaa, hadaplah kau bar exam tue.

ok maaf terpost emo
bukan dengki just tak puas hati dengan sistem pendidikan kat sini
baru aku nampak awam dan swasta, yelah macam kami ini kemain duduk MUET sampai lapan kali masih tak lepas MUET  nak dapat band4. memang aku bangang BI kot. entahlah labu. lantaklah, dah tadak rezeki kau
yang hal kat atas tue, lantak la dia nak menjobor ke hapa ke. malas aku nak layan orang macam kau. hu ha sana sini. tapi habuk pun tarak, semoga balik nanti kau jadi hakim. good luck. :)

p/s: baru lepas MUET memang tak ada jodoh aku dengan law. takpalah hai journalism. :)
good luck dan tahniah kepada siapa yang dapat band4 nanti.
nanti dah jadi peguam or hakim ingat jangan jadi macam orang dekat atas ok.
heart!

potong connection

tak perlu dah kot. yelah dah orang tak suka kau lagi buat apa terhegeh-hegeh. blah je hamdan, blah je. kau tak rugi apa-apa pun. you can live on your owns! 




bye.

hari bersamanya

this song reminds me of my merbokian's
guys i missed all of you.
thank you for seizing my days. nak nak masa nak dekat final.
hope dapat jumpa lagi next sem
:')

before i start reading

before i start flipping through my notes again. tetiba aku rasa nak menaip,
well my english arent that good. thats whylah lepas empat kali ambil pun i still not moving from my old band.
*long sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

today i want to talk about friends
oh yeah. i have lots of them. most of them are good. but some of them. urghh i dont what to says. maybe they know they are so big tick at that point.

well life isnt that wonderful lately, since my wan aunt and uncle are on their trip to paris and london for two weeks me and my mom kena jaga their house. so for the past 2 weeks my life circle begun at 6. i woke up at 6. done my prayer and cycled with my mom to my aunty's house. quite fun, i have to admitted it sometimes.

so my sister as. my third sister to be precise, have move on to kuala lumpur. :(
ok rumah ini bosan. only me and mom at home. walaupun we do a lots of activities together but rasa dia tak sama. since we have lost one of our members here.

this 6months long holiday should not be waste. so i was hoping for the blast. thank anas, ijat and shaz for dragging me into this little biz world. i felt much more productive now, thank you very much. i heart trio of you guys!

so lets sambung baca slide notes MUET nieh
for the sake of band4.

p/s:lately banyak ajar diri redha dengan semua ketentuan Illahi, kalau kali ini tak dapat band4 redha je mungkin rezeki dekat tempat lain. dan dan dan terima kasih kerana mendoakan yang terbaik untuk saya. *menangis terharu sikit*

dig it

ignore the grammatical error. if you cant stand it, just write a comment and fix my grammar. :0

lets begin
i will be seating for my MUET test this saturday,
by the way this is my third times minus the one that i absence since my mother brought me to Sabah last year
at least i scored bandX for that. which mean i am officially a BEN10 geeks.
so whats the update?

i just finished my foundation studies. Alhamdulillah. thank to Allah and law lecture for giving me C+ for my law. i am freaking scared whenever the consequences is, since after that paper i burst into tears! only god knows how miserable i am at that time. i crying like a mad man.i ignore people around me and cry cry cry like a little baby. thanks to Allah again for blessings me so cool super duper awesome understanding families and friends. i managed to get through. big thanks goes to them.

my CG was okay. i scored 3.00. So if and only i get band4 for this time. yes i will doing law, insya-Allah. but if not, nak buat macam manakan. heh journalism pun boleh juga.

to be frank i dont mind apa-apa course pun yang i will get. as long as i will get a degree. that is more than enough. sounded like "eh budak nie tadak vision ke apa?" "entah tak tengok skop kerja ke apa?"
but listen to me. i am the one who believed in rezeki jika ada rezeki saya ada, kalau tadak maknanya saya harus berusaha lebih. again im sound like positivist. ok thats me. not all the time, but sometimes.

recently everyone want to brag about what courses that they are doing. i know you are super duper awesome students yang buat course that will makes people scream hell out of it. but for me. i will reply with very super duper annoying facial expressions that you have ever seen in your whole life. so please dont brag about it. because im not interested in anything that you're doing now. thank you.

dah jadi post emo pula dah. by the way, i just finished watching a Usage movie. where a girl pretend to lose her virginity to one of the boys in his school. a year senior from her. so heres the story. her bestfriend keep asking her apa yang telah dia lakukan on that date, and one of the question is.
"you guys make out tak?" something like that la. but not in malay. purely in english american accent. so because terlampau annoyed with her so called bestfriend question she replied yes. and walahhh someone in the ladies heard their conversation and that girls is a preacher's daughter. so she spread the rumors about that girl is not a virgin anymore. so the most interesting part is only that girl, the mangsa of fitnah i would call know the truth, instead of doing a bad things to that girl she turned out to be one of the most popular girls school. she dress up like a bitches show her cleavage whenever she got the chances and do "nasty" things kepada sesiapa yang stare at her. not only that she help insan insan yang dipanggil "loser" too. where this bunch of loser will use her as a tool to make themselves to be more appreciated in high school community. lol. it was hilarious yet it is fun to do a good deeds in such bad ways. -__-'. like every movies, everything must come to an end. so that girls clear her names and date a boy yang she ada crushed on, since she was in 8th grade, the best part is, that boy pun ada crushed on her since he was in 8th grade too. oh sweetnya. so end of story.

ok dah habis sinopsis cerita fantasy! see guys esok! salam.
i am too fraking bored so this blog so gonna called my place to tell everything that i think i wanna tell. so guys have a wonderful weekend ahead.

pray to Allah tomorrow will be the day. the day yang will make me smiles each time i see that slip!
salam

very short update.

i went to Indonesia for a few days.
bought a few items. and for the very first time of my life
i got the chances to feel what is like to be a millionaire
thanks mom for the rupiah
and thanks sister for swiping me your credit card whenever i run out of money
kah kah kah


oh not to forget
happy holiday to all pre-lawrians

i've done my part, now let HIM do the rest. :)

bersuara

dulu katanya kita mungkin ditakdirkan menjadi pasangan kekasih
tetapi gamaknya kini kedua-duanya semakin hanyut entah kemana.
hilang entah kemana.
semakin hari, semakin jauh.

dulu katanya mahu mencipta serta melakar sejarah,
tidak kira. sekali mahupun sekala dalam hidupnya
malangnya kini. harapan yang tinggi mengunung, semakin runtuh dan lenyap dari hari ke hari,
sedih jangan dikata....cuma batin membuka bicara? zahirnya?

mungkin manusia semakin lupa siapa diri mereka yang sebenarnya
mungkin manusia mudah alpa dengan harta kekayaan dan kejayaan yang mereka kecapi
sedar ataupun tidak? semua itu sementara. lagi memalukan bila kita gah sana sini. besar sana sini. tetapi bila disisi-NYA kita kecil. lebih kecil dari biji sawi. lebih kecil dari kuman nista!
tetapi ini semua bukan lagi "mungkin" bukan lagi sesuatu yang dianggap
"oh tidak pernah manusia berpelakuan sedemikian rupa!!!"
tetapi kini semuanya, menjadi norma. menjadi adat dalam kehidupan manusia
mudah melepaskannya, tetapi sukar untuk kita semua melakukannya

aku hidup dalam dunia yang penuh kompleks.
tergolong dalam kumpulan manusia yang tidak pernah mengecapi apa-apa kejayaan dalam hidup mereka
seorang manusia dan rakan yang tidak sesekali menjadi keutamaan dalam kehidupan orang lain,
dunia berputar pada paksinya....tetapi aku? masih dalam kehidupan dalam dunia sendiri
penuh khayalan dan lakonan yang karakternya hanya ada aku dan aku sahaja
mungkin sudah tiba masanya untuk aku memadam nama-nama yang samar
memulakan hari esok dengan penuh lagak dan gaya, walaupun dalam hati hanya batin sahaja yang tahu betapa sukarnya untuk aku membina setiap langkah dan tapak untuk kehadapan
akhirnya, itulah dunia. dimana dia dan isinya dipenuhi dengan makhluk hipokrit
dipenuhi dengan segala isi masalah utama.
dipenuhi dengan manusia yang lagaknya mengerti..tetapi dalam hati penuh dengan perasaan hitam yang harus dicaci dan dimaki.


selamat malam Merbok
moga bau "Getah" ini dapat membuka minda segelintir manusia.


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